My sudden decisions

Hey,

It’s me again, Melody. You probably notice that I didn’t post anything in a month cause still I am figuring out myself and the things going on in. ‘real’ reality. As you know I am a kpoper. I started being a Stan since 2010+. Because my older sis are fan of K-pop. In my region K-pop is really popular since 2007. So there is no point that I can’t love K-pop. Cause you know I heard their songs everyday and always been attached my mind. So yeah.

Okay, in 2014. I started standing Bangtan sonyeondan or BTS. Which now is the most famous boy group. Which consisted in 7 members. Before I feel the spark, the thing, I am inspired to Stan them like I was overly crazy at any kpop groups. But I am more crazier when it was in BTS. But now, I feel not inspired anymore or I don’t feel standing them anymore. Don’t hate me. I have depression and I easily get distracted.i have anxiety when my last semester ended and some personal reasons. In my personal reasons. I am leaving the fandom. I want to be more focused. You know my family. My parents wants me study harder and my goals is to be focused in studying.

Actually I am lazy kids ass. But from some reasons. I need to let go. You know I’m 16. I am still not old. But I should be more productive. Now , I don’t feel good. I have less self esteem today. I am depressed for 1 month now. I keep drinking pills. I won’t tell you some info what happened to me. But it’s a hard decisions. I wanna get back myself where I started. I wanna stay away from kpop community. Still I’ll support them no matter what.

–Melody–